The New Year’s Reflections….
Well, it’s the New Year, and as I sit here in my bed with Malaria once again, I reflect on the last four months of our time here.
I am amazed at God’s faithfulness. He has guided our steps all along the way. Not knowing what to fully expect to experience as a full-time missionary, there were many questions I pondered before coming. Questions like, ” will I fit in?” ” Will I really reach the women in the way I desire?” ” Will it be safe for my children, and will they thrive or flounder?” “Will they receive the education I am hoping for them as I choose to homeschool them instead of send them to an international school?” So many questions came to my mind.
These questions came before we arrived here in Uganda. Once we touched ground and were actually here in reality, I realized all of my questions and worry were vain imaginations. I soon began to realize, that when The Lord called our family to this specific location on the planet, He knew what He was doing, and He knew us. I started to see the Lord’s hand in EVERYTHING. From walking down our streets and meeting new friends, to teaching women all over Uganda about the love of God, and how perfectly He had prepared my kids to be taught in this environment.
I have to admit I have suffered from culture shock quite a bit! I have felt homesick a lot and it comes in waves. From everything I have read on culture shock, it makes sense that a person would feel resistant to such a huge change of life. My prayer this morning for the first day of this new year of 2014, is that The Lord would take down any walls in my heart for this place and these wonderful people and allow me to be fully present. That I would have perfect peace because my eyes are on Him. I am realizing that I am not an ambassador for America, or an ambassador for Uganda. I am an ambassador for Jesus Christ. He is my standard. I’m not trying to fit into the culture I am in to please the people, but shining the love of Christ to the lost and broken world, which is cross cultural. It’s not about keeping quiet about issues because I don’t want to offend a culture, it’s about speaking the truth in love no matter where I am on this earth. It’s a Jesus culture.
On another note, the holidays have been wonderful for us! My mom surprised us and flew out here two days before Christmas. It was the surprise of my life! My kids are on cloud nine right now:) We spent Christmas camping in a tent on the Nile river in Jinja, Uganda. It was just what the doctor ordered! We have been going at neck breaking speed for these last four months, so to be able to unwind and relax was a gift from God. My mom leaves in two days and so I am trying to savor every moment with her that I can. She has definitely been touched by the love of the people here and the state of living. She said that the pictures just don’t paint the picture of reality here. It’s hard to capture the smells, sounds, traffic jams, smog and poverty on a snapshot of a moment. I am glad for her fresh eyes to see things here again because I have become so used to seeing things that I forget the beauty of first sight.
Next week Jason and I start our bible studies again and my prayer going forward is to go deeper with the women and really get to the core issues of daily life here. To equip them to know the word and how to apply it to their lives and situations.
May God bless you all in this new year and may He draw you close to His side.
Love,
Michelle Folkestad